Ruby007 – Agent Under Stress

May 21st is just around the corner and I want to be miles away from it right now! Yet, there’s no escaping this date.

May 21st is my university graduation and at this moment, I’m so (to the power of infinity) stressed out – physically, mentally and emotionally.

First of all, the amount of work on my plate is building up. I finish one thing, something else takes the spot on that plate. It just wont end! I have homework and projects left and right and they NEED to be completed…very soon!

I don’t have time for much these days. School-work-work-school. That’s my five-day-a-week pattern. During the weekends, I get to relax a little, but my mind is always stressing about school. So my poor little brain doesn’t get the needed rest!

Second of all, I’m mentally drained. I’m losing my memory as I slowly near graduation. For some odd reason, I can never remember anything these days. Ask me on a Monday what I did on the weekend, and I’ll be honest when I mumble, “I don’t know.”

Shit! I really can’t remember much. No wonder I don’t retain much of the information I read for class these days. And hey, I’ve been on top of my readings! I haven’t let that slip…just yet!

Thirdly, I’m just so torn emotionally. As much as I complain about school, these years are never going to be relived–EVER! Scary though!

I’ve been in school since I was 5 and now as a 21 year old, I find myself repeating, “I’m not ready yet.” Then faintly, I hear my friend Alyssa’s voice: “Yes Rub, you are ready! And you’re going to do great.”

This is what I’m going to miss. Sitting in class, messing around, bugging my friends and professors. These experiences! It’s never going to be the same and that makes me a really, really sad girl.

Anyhow, enough ranting. I need to get myself together. I must end this blog positively.

Although I’m completely drained, it’s a good-kind-a-drained! I’m going to miss every bit of this drainey (I like inventing new words) lifestyle. In the process I love everyone I have encountered this year (there are a few exceptions).

It’s been wonderful. Let’s keep it at that!

The U.S Women’s National (Soccer) Team is in China right now for the 2007 Women’s World Cup.

As a fan of the greatest team in the world, I would like to wish them all the best and a lot of success so they come back home with the Gold!!

Good luck ladies!

And all you fans out there, show your support by doing what you do already, cheering for a great team.

Con Amor,
Ruby

It’s amazing. The people who you start your life with, as a child, somehow manage to be in your life forever. You may or may not be best friends with them, but you might be in touch with them, or you might notice how much of an impact they have left in your tiny little world.

As I slowly find more and more friends through facebook, all those I went to elementary, middle, and high school with, I’m realizing how much their presence altered me and just knowing that I’m in touch with them, makes me miss my past life. It makes me realize we’ll never be 5 again, but at the same time, I know we’ll still be together in the future.

With that, there’s a huge sense of comfort. So, a toast to all of you my lovely friends. I’m glad you were present in my past, are with me at this moment, and will be in the future.

Toast!