I have nothing, nothing…

{ September 24, 2008 @ 7:03 am } · { Life }
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The title came out from a line in one of Mel Brooks movies.

Life has been so unusual lately. I graduated from school in May and have been unable to find a job. For the last 18 years of my life I’ve been in school and for the last two years, I had a job. Now, not having either is just awkward.

I’ve been sleeping late these days because it has been so hard for me to sleep. I’ll lay my head on the pillow at 1 a.m. and won’t get to sleep till maybe 5 a.m. I wake up anywhere between 10a.m.-12p.m. I know those are awful sleeping habits, but I just can’t sleep early.

My best friend says these sleeping habits are occurring because I don’t have any worries about school or work. Which is true, but I worry about when I’ll find a job. I hate being home all day while everyone is either at work or in school. All I do is apply for jobs, stay online, watch TV and talk on the phone. I’ve never felt like this before, but I guess that’s what happens when you spend 18 years in school.

Some days, I miss school a lot. I’m planning to go back for my MA around FA’09, but I’m hoping I can enter the program with some, maybe even a year, work experience. I don’t want to enter into the program blind; having some experience will make things clearer for me…I think.

Anyhow, I’m anticipating some positive changes within the next few months and I’m praying every night for good things to come my way and everyone’s way.

Untill then, the best I can do is get excited over the new season of Heroes!!!

Feeling the Pressure

{ April 18, 2008 @ 4:37 am } · { Uncategorized }
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May 21st is just around the corner and I want to be miles away from it right now! Yet, there’s no escaping this date.

May 21st is my university graduation and at this moment, I’m so (to the power of infinity) stressed out – physically, mentally and emotionally.

First of all, the amount of work on my plate is building up. I finish one thing, something else takes the spot on that plate. It just wont end! I have homework and projects left and right and they NEED to be completed…very soon!

I don’t have time for much these days. School-work-work-school. That’s my five-day-a-week pattern. During the weekends, I get to relax a little, but my mind is always stressing about school. So my poor little brain doesn’t get the needed rest!

Second of all, I’m mentally drained. I’m losing my memory as I slowly near graduation. For some odd reason, I can never remember anything these days. Ask me on a Monday what I did on the weekend, and I’ll be honest when I mumble, “I don’t know.”

Shit! I really can’t remember much. No wonder I don’t retain much of the information I read for class these days. And hey, I’ve been on top of my readings! I haven’t let that slip…just yet!

Thirdly, I’m just so torn emotionally. As much as I complain about school, these years are never going to be relived–EVER! Scary though!

I’ve been in school since I was 5 and now as a 21 year old, I find myself repeating, “I’m not ready yet.” Then faintly, I hear my friend Alyssa’s voice: “Yes Rub, you are ready! And you’re going to do great.”

This is what I’m going to miss. Sitting in class, messing around, bugging my friends and professors. These experiences! It’s never going to be the same and that makes me a really, really sad girl. :(

Anyhow, enough ranting. I need to get myself together. I must end this blog positively.

Although I’m completely drained, it’s a good-kind-a-drained! I’m going to miss every bit of this drainey (I like inventing new words) lifestyle. In the process I love everyone I have encountered this year (there are a few exceptions).

It’s been wonderful. Let’s keep it at that!

International Students

{ March 13, 2008 @ 5:35 pm } · { School }
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Life is crazy when you’re an international student! I really feel for them. Every department will tell you something incorrect or just not answer your questions appropriately.

You’ll probably run around campus in the California summer heat, have a stroke, maybe a migraine and a couple heart attacks by the time you get the correct answer. And even then, it won’t be the answer you had expected because everyone else you spoke to earlier said something different. At this time, alzheimer’s might start kicking in.

Wait, I think every student encounters this craziness! Whether you’re international, national or local, it is no different. Nonetheless, international students do get the deep-rough end.

Sigh…

My Photography

{ March 6, 2008 @ 5:41 am } · { Photos }
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My flickr account is now open for viewing. Here’s the link:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/rabeeah/

Enjoy and comments/tips are always welcome!

Cooking a hot dog…differently

{ March 4, 2008 @ 10:19 pm } · { Food }
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Step 1: Things you will need

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Step 2: Getting the Show on the Road

1. Drink up your Pepsi (coke, 7up, or whatever you drink).
2. Wash the can.
3. With your new scissors, tilt your soda can horizontally and cut a decent amount sized square in the middle.
4. Line the inside of your soda can with the aluminum foil you bought.
5. Take 1 or 2 hot dogs and place them inside the can on the aluminum.
6. Place the soda can, with the hot dog, in bright sunlight for a couple hours (keep checking on your hot dog).
7. Once cooked by the sun’s heat, throw away the soda can (or reuse it) and eat your hot dogs.

**The above experiment was performed by me and my classmates in 6th grade. It was quite successful and yummy. However, not everyone enjoyed it.


Show Your Support!!!

{ September 13, 2007 @ 4:13 pm } · { Uncategorized }
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The U.S Women’s National (Soccer) Team is in China right now for the 2007 Women’s World Cup.

As a fan of the greatest team in the world, I would like to wish them all the best and a lot of success so they come back home with the Gold!!

Good luck ladies!

And all you fans out there, show your support by doing what you do already, cheering for a great team.

Con Amor,
Ruby

Who you start your life with.

{ May 19, 2007 @ 6:25 am } · { Uncategorized }
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It’s amazing. The people who you start your life with, as a child, somehow manage to be in your life forever. You may or may not be best friends with them, but you might be in touch with them, or you might notice how much of an impact they have left in your tiny little world.

As I slowly find more and more friends through facebook, all those I went to elementary, middle, and high school with, I’m realizing how much their presence altered me and just knowing that I’m in touch with them, makes me miss my past life. It makes me realize we’ll never be 5 again, but at the same time, I know we’ll still be together in the future.

With that, there’s a huge sense of comfort. So, a toast to all of you my lovely friends. I’m glad you were present in my past, are with me at this moment, and will be in the future.

Toast!

At Every Corner of The Earth / World

{ April 12, 2007 @ 5:50 am } · { Love }
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Wherever you go, whenever you do, you’ll find that love blooms at every corner of the earth. You can travel million miles around the world and you’ll find love. Whether it’s a couple, parent, place, animal, memories, or even a belonging, they all involve love…they all grow and enhance from and with love.

Even in the darkest places and places that are so deep that you can’t reach, love will be present there in some form. In the end, it’s what connects us all to one another and to ourselves.

We are all connected through love!

To Be A Woman

{ April 11, 2007 @ 6:44 am } · { Women }
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It’s really amazing to be a woman. With all the negativities (hormones and what not) aside, we get the chance to have a person grow inside of us for nine months.

Ya, I know a lot comes with it–stretch marks, morning sickness, tons of pain, etc–but to be able to know and comprehend that there’s a life inside us, must be just an amazing feeling (I’m at a loss for words).

Women are amazing souls; our body does so much work in nine months…something / work no man can ever even compare to.

Pretty Amazing

{ April 4, 2007 @ 7:57 am } · { Family }
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It’s pretty amazing and scary when your 4-year-old nephew starts singing “I wanna love you” and “Smack that.”

I was in shock and utter disbelief.

His poor 4-year-old mind has been infected with…well, crap!

Sigh!

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